The workout that almost wasn't

I took all the steps last night preparing for success today. I planned breakfast, clothes, and scheduled my day. 

Something happened when I woke up. Apparently nothing was going to plan. I had no clean bowls ready for my kids breakfast, I couldn't find the blender for my breakfast and we were running late. 

I decided to hit up Tim hortons on our way to the gym to save time and get us all fed. 

When we got to the gym we headed in, paid for childcare and went into the kids room.  I gave my kiddos a kiss and hug and off I went to finally get my sweat on... 

That was until about 5 minutes later when they came to get me because my youngest was really upset and wouldn't stop crying. 

I went to go calm her down. Spent 10min getting her comfortable again. Then I snuck out. She caught me and started crying. Good thing the childcare ladies and I had discussed this and they decided to try a little longer this time. 

I stood outside the door waiting for her to de-escalate. 

After a few minutes I decided to just go get some working out done and let them come get me if she's still upset a little later on. 

All in all I got about 20-25min of cardio in.  Not my idea of a big workout, but at this point I will take what I can get! 

Melt my heart!

I have to say, whenever my oldest, my son, falls asleep on me, I completely melt. Something about his little body going limp and warm and sinking onto me just makes me really feel how much I mean to him <3

Tonight after a fight to go to bed, he came down sat on the arm of my chair and laid his head on my shoulder. Then he told me he just wanted to spend some time with me because even though we were together ALL day, he said he missed me and didn't get any time with me today! 

Aaaaahhhhhhhh!!!!!

Currently sitting to meet a trainer so get my fitness assessment done. I'm feeling really nervous to actually admit to someone the habits that have gotten me where I am today.  

I tend to be a little defensive and shut down when people point out what I'm doing "wrong", especially when it's based on snap judgement and too little information.  I am going to try to be as open minded and receptive as possible. I am also feeling very self conscious. 333lbs of lady with someone half my size trying to relate can be awkward. Although the girl who I met here yesterday did a fantastic job making me feel like I was welcome and belonged there. She looked at me like a normal person! 

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Fast forward to after the appointment! 

I tried really hard to open myself up and be honest with the trainer about my strengths and weaknesses. 

She was really nice and receptive to everything. My guard stayed down the entire time! 

I think I would really really benefit from working with a trainer on an ongoing basis. Now to see if I can afford to invest in it! I need to make it a priority. 

Also good news, I weighed in at 228!! So progress for me already!! 

Here we are on our way to the gym! 

Can't wait to go again tomorrow! 

Took the plunge!

Went to the gym today to sign up.  I met the most lovely girl there who went through my orientation. It made all the difference in the world with my comfort level.

Getting so amped to jump into it. Just need to go to my assessment tomorrow and then I can get this party started!! 

The childcare is extremely affordable, which is a huge plus. I was expecting it to be more expensive for 3 kids but it's only $5 for an hour! There is an awesome change room and dry sauna, and I get access to a whole other club! Maybe I'll even get my tan on next summer! 

Bring on my best self! 

New beginnings!

Well, here I go on a new adventure.

I have shut down my daycare of 5 years and moved to a new city with my family of 5 to make a new life for ourselves. Be friends, new explorations and a new way of life. 

I am going to be a stay at home mom for the first time since my oldest was a baby. I will have a very part-time job as a nanny (fingers crossed) but the majority of the time will be spent tending to my family. 

My kids are 5, 3, and 1. Before I had my third, I was able to lose 80lbs, take up running and being active. 

After I had my third I struggled a lot with my weight. I had lost a big part of my support system and was struggling with breastfeeding, running a daycare on my own and tending to my family, while my husband was working long hours leaving little to no time for myself. 

The result: I gained a LOT of weight. 

Here I am today, all 333lbs of me. My highest weight ever. 

Starting measurements:

L Bicep - 17.5"

R Bicep - 18"

Bust - 54"

Waist - 51"

Hips - 64"

L Thigh - 31"

R Thigh - 32"

L Calf - 20"

R Calf - 19"

Ready to tackle this body and my life once and for all!